i woke up later than i would have wanted this morning
i think either "life" is little overwhelming or im getting sick

neither are really that interesting huh?

so a representation of where i'm at right now:

i had the most intense lucid dream last night
i was physically shaking in the bed super tense and woke up telling nicholas I AM NO AFRAID
one of the most disturbing dreams
i faced it head on
i cant even speak about it

i really am craving some hardcore silence. i just want my environment to match the peace i feel inside sometimes

once again ive had someone tell me i am a healer copper is a transmitter
bizarre right
3rd stranger like 10th person

it has something to do with my hands


everyday is a lesson and appreciate today as a new segmant of this now

i am in love with nicholas
i am okay with it
i put the brainwaves out for him to hurt me if anything goes down,
i can handle that